WWE Icon Nikki Bella Makes Heartbreaking Confession: “I Definitely Lost Myself”

Nikki Bella has opened up about her personal life.

As a WWE Hall of Famer who debuted nearly 20 years ago, Nikki Bella has been in the public eye for a long time. In addition to her WWE career, Nikki opened up her life to reality TV as the star of “Total Divas” and “Total Bellas” in the 2010s.

While Nikki Bella was famously engaged to WWE legend John Cena, after they split up, she would go on to marry dancer Artem Chigvintsev, who was best known for the “Dancing with the Stars” show. The couple is proud parents to a young boy named Matteo.

Sadly, Nikki Bella’s marriage to Artem Chigvintsev ended in divorce in November 2024, and there was a public fallout due to a domestic issue that may not have been as serious as when it was reported.

In an eye-opening interview with The Flying Felon, Nikki Bella spoke openly about her marriage.

“I had a really hard marriage… and I think sometimes we are in relationships and we love really hard… and then they can turn into not a great relationship… and I think we can lose ourselves in that—and I definitely lost myself in that relationship.

There was so much of me that was missing where I would look in the mirror and I just didn’t really recognize myself anymore. I was like, where is she? Where’s the sparkle, the strength, the bravery, the fearlessness, the sexiness, the sassiness—like where is she? Divorce is just hard, especially when you have children.”

Nikki Bella Felt “Broken” As Marriage Fell Apart

As she continued opening up about her divorce, Nikki Bella admitted that she broke down while dealing with everything.

“I remember one night just falling to my knees… I just was so broken. I was like, ‘God, I feel so lost. I feel so weak. I feel so powerless… I’m just surrendering to you.’ I just felt like no one knew my truth… but I knew that silence was so powerful—and I had to do it to protect my son.”

Nikki also discussed how the public’s reaction to her divorce made her life even harder.

“When stuff has hit the fan in my life, and I’ve been close to rock bottom without doing that work, I had to take things on the chin. Yeah. And it wasn’t great, and there were certain things that weren’t great for me publicly. And I wanted to go fight it.

I mean, there was a divorce attorney that was just online talking about my divorce… and he put over a lot of things that he did in it and then he said there were some things that went on and I agree there were some things that my divorce attorney didn’t do that was great.” (H/T Ringsidenews)

For the past year, Nikki Bella has been back “home” in WWE, and her twin sister Brie Bella has returned as well. At WrestleMania, The Bella Twins will challenge the Irresistible Forces team of Nia Jax & Lash Legend for the Women’s Tag Team Titles, in a match that will also include Charlotte Flair & Alexa Bliss, along with the Bayley & Lyra Valkyria team.

Nikki Bella is dealing with an ankle injury, but there is optimism that she’ll be okay for WrestleMania on April 18 & April 19 in Las Vegas.